It has been WAAAAYYY too long since my last post. I believe almost a month! I have been so busy. I headed back to school and am finishing up my third week, I believe I only have 11 more to go before I am DONE with classes. Not only done for the semester, but forever. I am probably going to go back and get my Master's my first year out through an AMAZING program my University has, but I still won't formally be in a classroom.
As last semester ended, I felt as if my life was falling apart around me. However, as this new one has begun, I believe things are beginning to take a turn for the better. To be completely honest, it was through a LOT of hard work and constant applications and phone calls. I also truly believe that God is the one who got me through it all! I was raised a Catholic, and by no means am I not "Holy", but I had an extremely hard time attending church. The church I was raised at I could no longer stand. Between the stuff the priest has pulled with my family, friends, and the immense negative impact he had on me. However, I have found myself at a new sense of peace.
Lately something has come over me, and I have been thinking more and more about God, my future, and how much He really does have a role in it. I was never much of a "prayer" outside of church, (and I think that it was due to the negative impact I had with church at a younger age) but lately I have felt a lot better about my life and I think it is because I have prayed more in these last two months than I probably have in years combined. I have found myself beginning to search for a church that "fits" me, and is someplace I can picture going to whenever I get married, have children, and will attend until the day I die. I think the reading of a few people's blog, the holiday's, and a book I have been reading has really put things into perspective for me. It sounds dumb that thing's like that had to bring me to it, I know. But I have really began to thank Him for all of his blessings and miracles. Even though I, or other people, may not agree or like the situation their life is in, I truly understand that they are in it for a reason. As my sister-in-law said to me, He wouldn't put it all on me if I couldn't handle it. There was some lesson behind the last few months, and I am really beginning to thank Him for that.
I know I am still very young, but I have always tended to be more mature for my age (or at least I think so, and I have been told that). The number of things I take on at once while being a full time student is tremendous! I think that as graduation draws nearer, and when I look at the short road ahead of me before I truly start to begin the rest of my life, the journey and hard times I have encountered have been worth it, and make me the person that I am beginning to be today.
This is a really random blog, I understand. But I just wanted to get things out there...
I will be back to blog more soon!